Memorial Day 2002

As a memorial to the eternal presence of God,
I offer thanks for the simple soft rain which fell steadily through the night.
These parched New Mexican soils dance with ressurection at this blessing,
having not been bathed by sky-waters for so long
that even the most devoted of sun-worshipers joined in the rain prayers.
May I, in simple gratitude,
walk this day awake to the blessing you bestow
within each and every breath.
Amen.

"The capacity for self-love and the experience of being loved by 'God' are identical...." The realization arrived unexpectedly (as usual) during a morning shower. "Whatever remains of the tendency to experience the seperated states lies rooted in unexposed feelings of unworthiness," my voice for God continued. "See all the recent ego death firing squad events in your life from the perspective of Ultimate Love, and you will see that they are all supportive and blessing actions.... gifts given to help squeeze to the surface and into the light that which desires to remain hidden. The completely selfless hide nothing, knowing no fear of exposure. When fully purified, what 'others' think of you is of no consequence, for the reality of 'God's Love' is all-incompassing....." Feeling blessed, baptized, and connected to wholeness once again, 'I' finished showering, and emerged to greet the day in graditude.

Bowing to profound mystery, I practice going nowhere,
and thus find clarity arriving like a fog thinning in mid-day.
Who is there that does not understand this?
It takes such immense effort to stay frozen in the boiling desert sun.
Why would a free one choose such suffering?
Irregardless of the mind's bellowing, all roads lead only to it's surrender.
Herein lies my understanding, sure joy, and certain peace.

Beautiful non-resistance,
beckoning the heart ready to surrender the struggle,
how I welcome your exquisitely timed teachings,
appearing abruptly in my unprepared nowness,
measuring honestly both my truth and falseness,
then holding the black-white-gray scale mirror of reality before me
with the greatest love.

How free one is as nothing.

May the Peace be with you,
May Knowledge heal all ignorances,
May Love make you Free,
and may God's presence radiate
in sweet perfection from your eyes.